Orthotics, hearing aids and meltdowns

Well its been awhile since I have posted! Man have we been busy...

Today we 1..went to get Jadyn evaluated and possibly fit for orthotics. Great news he only needs an insert woo hoo! He has this crazy big toe~both feet that can do almost anything, NO KIDDING! That baby can almost suction any shoe and the tread on the bottom is only worn on that side. But he has great posture his walking seem just fine and all he needs is a strong sole support and an insert if we feel that he needs later.  So on on appt 2 and 3. We get his hearing checked (gasp) and recheck for his ears. So as always we do a hearing check 1st and he actually sat down and worked with the guy, whom I later found out was a the doctor. We were in a room sound booth tapanogram which measures fluid and a table of hearing aids. Jadyn did very well for them not me, but he has a 40% hearing loss in the left ear and fluid, which goes hand in hand. We did look at the hearing aids and he actually did great for the exam too. They did not see me wanna hang the kid by his toe nails (remember the big toe) before the doctor entered the room. The fluid has gone down since the last visit and we are gonna give it 6 more months and see how much the fluid goes down from there. The plan is to get him hearing aids in December, we will do the hearing test and another check. If tests reveal the same hearing loss we will move forward with the aids. They will basically buy time to let his little canals to grow. No they are not permanent, but it still breaks my heart. So yes I was the one who had the meltdown today. Yep right there in the office waiting in between doctors. I just thought how strong Jadyn is and how he just rolls with the flow no matter what the circumstances. Amazing! There are no words for it.Well yes there is.... we serve an awesome God!!♥

I have been always loved writing. Here lately its been on my heart a little more so than normal. Yes there are some situations that increase these themes or words but I just thought I would share.



Needing

The sand,
between my toes.
The sunshine
on my face.
The seagulls
in my ears.
The waves
to rock me to sleep.


I do

Who misses a friendship of laughter bonded through the years?
Strengthened by memories, babies and tears.
Who is longing for the day for a visit or a call?
Wondering what it was that was the final straw.
Will we ever be the same or always far apart?
Is there too many times of betrayal or hurting of the heart?
Who is praying we can fix the mess we have created?
Hoping that our feelings won't be shamed or gated.
Who is the one who thought you'd always be there?
I am afraid that you really never cared.

Busy, Busy ♥

We had a nice weekend. Olivia played ball in Kansas City Saturday and Sunday. Jadyn and I went Saturday. It was nice to be able to go to games and  actualy watch a game without Jadyn running around like a crazy man. Sunday it was cold never made it to 60 degrees so we opted out and stayed home. My intentions were to go get groceries and do the laundry thing. But as I was headed out the door I realized that my keys and purse were in Bryce's car. Guess what? No shopping! So I did laundry and got in a chick flick. I was able to read a book this weekend! I know, how exciting. I never had read a book that was a movie as well but I am now interested to  watch the movie Dear John. VERY GOOD! Disappointed in the outcome though, I did learn that the writer also wrote The Notebook.

As soon as Olivia and Bryce got home he immediately started unloading the car. Little did I know that she was organizing a scavenger hunt. She has such an imagination that it just blows me away! The final destination revealed an herb garden~that I had my eye on for sometime. I never expected any of it. I love surprises and that really made my day.

Today is Bryce's birthday. We got him a couple of gifts and made Southwest Egg Rolls for dinner. I can also say that I hid a small cake in the fridge and he never seen it. I was fun to listen to Jadyn sing happy birthday! We had a picnic in the living room and the kids had a blast.  We haven't done that in a long time, since we got new carpet in November. 

It is hard to believe that we have celebrated 17 birthdays together! WOW!!  

Well isn't this fun?

Well its spring and I truly am a fan of this time of year. I like the green grass, blossoming flowers and trees, the smelll of fresh cut grass. But it is also the time of year where the madness begins. We have softball (Bryce & Olivia), Jadyn has horseback riding on Mondays and now that it is getting nicer, ski practice. May 15th Bryce and Olivia are in the Wichita Riverfest. It is our 1st time going and their 1st time participating, so yes it is kind of exciting and as a mom freightful. I enjoyed the Pomona Lake ski show so I can only imagine what the next one is like ~ Olivia is the top left and Bryce is on the bottom row 2nd from the right.

Since I went to the doctor last week I now have clarence to go back to the gym and start running again ( I had a minor surgery and yes all is well). I try to go to the gym (brace yourself) @ 4:30 in the morning, before Bryce is gone to work  and the kids are up.  I admit I feel better (more awake, alert, I sleep better) it just makes for a long day. But lets not forget the laundry, dinner, dishes, homework and don't forget Young and the Restless♥.  It is days like these that make me think of when I worked Monday through Thursday and I had Fridays off~  it was like I had a head start or something. But just like my new favorite  saying "I am gonna keep on keepin on" and on that  ♪ note haha I have to go to bed and get ready for the fun to start again tomorrow

Not you...Me

So the last couple of days every button I have seems to have been pushed. As I am saying "so and so made me so mad" or "you are not gonna believe what this person did" I have had a some time to reflect on a couple of things. It's not them it's me. I know!? Right. Well I think about some situations where the table is turned. You know when someone barks at me or bites my head off when all I asked was for their help, opinion or whatever. And that's when it struck me. We have no idea what the other person is going through, what happened that morning or even five minutes ago. We don't know what their trials are or what battles they are going through. EVERYONE HAS SOMETHING. Jobs (or lack of), health, finances, kids, family, laundry, personal battles: weight, rejection, feeling alone or not good enough the list could go on and on. And it's so sad to me. So as I was driving home today I realized we have such a short time here to be with the ones we love. Then why do we waste so much time being unhappy? So today at work (when I was dealing with whom I felt was the most difficult person ever) I held her hand and comforted her at her time of pain, it was that moment that I realized we all just want compassion not pity but to know everything is gonna be okay. So when all was said and done I apologized for my behavior and the words that I said earlier, it was then I learned she too was battling her own issues. When she looked at me, I seen a sigh of relief and I could relate exactly how she felt~even though in my opinion we had been on opposite sides of the fence~we had the same feelings.

Search me O God, and know my heart; try me; and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24

She just won't stop.....

GROWING!!!

It seems as if it were yesterday that I used to be able to hold her until she fell asleep but not anymore. I can remember dressing her in her first jean dress (overalls and pink tights) to go show Bryce on his lunch that she had her 1st tooth. Tonight we went to her first orchestra concert. It was alot of fun. I had bought her a dress and shoes last night and neither of them fit. So I had to take them back. Her foot has grown a half size in just 2 weeks. Bryce thought it was kinda funny, not me it makes my heart kinda sad. Where did this miniature person come from? Who has been feeding her the miracle grow? So Bryce decided to measure how tall she is....DRUM ROLL..4'71/2"! Me? I measured a whopping 5' even. What the heck? There's nothing I can do about so I will just embrace the fact that my baby girl is gonna be a giant haha just kidding.

I am soo excited! I finally did it~I have been wanting to do this for awhile now. So join in on the fun and we will laugh and cry together.