Not you...Me

So the last couple of days every button I have seems to have been pushed. As I am saying "so and so made me so mad" or "you are not gonna believe what this person did" I have had a some time to reflect on a couple of things. It's not them it's me. I know!? Right. Well I think about some situations where the table is turned. You know when someone barks at me or bites my head off when all I asked was for their help, opinion or whatever. And that's when it struck me. We have no idea what the other person is going through, what happened that morning or even five minutes ago. We don't know what their trials are or what battles they are going through. EVERYONE HAS SOMETHING. Jobs (or lack of), health, finances, kids, family, laundry, personal battles: weight, rejection, feeling alone or not good enough the list could go on and on. And it's so sad to me. So as I was driving home today I realized we have such a short time here to be with the ones we love. Then why do we waste so much time being unhappy? So today at work (when I was dealing with whom I felt was the most difficult person ever) I held her hand and comforted her at her time of pain, it was that moment that I realized we all just want compassion not pity but to know everything is gonna be okay. So when all was said and done I apologized for my behavior and the words that I said earlier, it was then I learned she too was battling her own issues. When she looked at me, I seen a sigh of relief and I could relate exactly how she felt~even though in my opinion we had been on opposite sides of the fence~we had the same feelings.

Search me O God, and know my heart; try me; and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24